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November 04, 2003
the trials and tribulations of sunshine girl
on sunday morning, i went shopping for an anniversary gift for sunshine girl. i got her a facial treatment package at the bay at yonge & bloor. november 2, 2003 marked her nine month anniversary of sobriety. this is significant because under different circumstances, she would have had a little baby boy or girl by now.
this is bittersweet. to think of her past struggles, been to rehab twice and have done every drug, pill or whatever. i've never seen anyone so determined to make a change for the better. she's quit drinking, smoking, all the drugs. she has been eating healthy, exercising regularly, as well as started going back to school part time. also, she has set some goals for the next year.
she might've lost a baby, but she gained her life.
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in the same thread: just read wcb's posting today. it's a small world after all. i know T through A, though not very well and am shocked and saddened to hear the news. i got him a book called 'love'. i'll drop it off tonight. i hope it will become a source of comfort. there's not much i can do. wcb, thanks for sharing. you're absolutely right. life is ironic, isn't it?
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just read soblo's posting too. he sounds like my psychology professor a few years back. my professor can be very down-to-earth, but can also become very technical with his words that i'd feel too stupid to follow his lectures. in this case, i had to re-read soblo's posting three times and put on my thinking cap to reflect. it makes complete sense now!
at first i thought maybe he's been over-analyzing his relationship with emm. after a few more reads, i strongly believe that it is a healthy assessment of his breakup. i guess he's been reading alot lately. i have a feeling that this has given him some peace, mentally and emotionally (though apparently, he's emotionally unavailable as he claims). i can't wait to read about the future guy he falls hard for and read the mechanics of why he fell for him a year later.
his analytical nature sort of reminds me of myself (only that i'm ten times more neurotic). that's my downfall. i'm too analytical. but sometimes, you have to replay life three or four times over before you make sense of it, you know?
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p.s. sunshine girl is on her period right now. she's extra cranky and easily-irritable. i need to keep my distance. lol.
p.s.#2 vocabulary word of the week is ostentatious: flamboyant, orchidaceous, peacockish, pretentious, splashy, swank. word used in a sentence: according to this guy, i have ostentatiously paraded my life unto my blog like a novel. he is annoyed and thinks i'm ridiculous.
my reply? why the fuck are you reading my blog? also, isn't being 'ostentatious' the whole of point of blogs in the first place? and why would you have a blog yourself? hypocrite! or is it my lifestyle you don't approve of? this is negative energy being transferred to me, isn't it? urgh. on the upside, i will now be using two words from reading his site. 'ostentatious' and the other word is 'sublime'. look it up. it's the most wonderful word to add to everyday vocabulary.
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