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March 26, 2004
changes
"be gentle with yourself and others when making changes. try not to force anything." - anonymous.
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i have had a very busy week, and yet here i am blogging. i guess my sense of pride and my need to feel important and connected overrides most other needs and obligations. over the past week, i realized that i need this blog more than ever. this, i shall expand soon enough.
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i am facing lots of changes in life. last week, a friend put it succinctly that i'm facing 'crossroads': a new employer, a new apartment, among other things. i hope these will lead to promising ventures. i'm a bit overwhelmed looking after the tiny details.
this morning, everything came to a halt. as usual my alarm clock said: 7:10am. then, 7:20am. and then, 7:30am. by 8:30am i was still in bed, and thought about not coming in to work. that was when i dialed my boss' number. by the time i got her answering machine, my mouth made its own decision: 'i'm running a tad behind... blah blah blah... i should be at my desk no later than 11am.' i guess i was going to show up at work afterall.
and then... i ran into a fellow blogger online. this is a whole other topic for discussion for another day.
by the time i reached my desk at work, the clock ticked at 12:15pm. suddenly, i regained my equilibrium. i was fine again.
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as of monday next week, i will be working for a new employer. i've decided to take the job offer along with another 6.5% raise. i will face the risks head on. about 25% of the staff have called it quits. that's pretty significant. it will be fairly empty in the office going forward.
as of monday of next week, my head turns north and south as i sleep in my new apartment, instead of east and west in my old bed.
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not once did it occur to me that i'm facing these changes without absorbing them first.
i'll be gentle. i won't force myself.
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